can identify with the "leavers". I still attend church because I enjoy
the community, but in my heart, I'm a non-believer. When I was a
teenager, I was very passionate about Christ. I believed 100% that he
was real, and wanted to be close to him, but I hadn't spent much time in
the Bible. When I got to college, I decided to start seriously
studying the Bible. I was active in one of the college Christian
groups. I attended retreats whenever possible. I led a Bible study and
attended two others. This whole time, I had no doubt that God was real,
but I wanted to know more so that I could share this with others. I
started study apologetics, but my life changed when I attended an
apologetics conference. After three days of listening to arguments for
why God is real, the thought kept running through my head "This is best
we have?" With every piece of proof I could see holes in the arguments.
That conference (and apologetics in general) changed me from a believer
to a skeptic."